Since my last update on my struggle with hypothyroidism, I have been following the same rules I originally set out. I’m avoiding raw greens like spinach and kale — as well as raw cruciferous vegetables like broccoli and cauliflower. I’m also avoiding soy products and have stopped eating tofu and edamame in large quantities. On top of that, I’ve tried to reduce my simple carb intake significantly…. aka I haven’t had a bowl of pasta/spaghetti for a long time.
So? That with the combination of increasing my medicine means things should have leveled out now, right? Yes? And No? Honestly, I’m not sure where I stand with my levels and I won’t for a few more weeks — which is when my next appointment is. Overall, my energy level has increased. I’ve stopped losing so much hair. And I feel more like myself. Many of my friends have said to me, “You have your personality back!” Or “You just seem happier.” These are all good things — great, in fact. But I still have my days where I’m stricken with anxiety or where my emotions seem to get the better of me. On top of that, despite eating a boatload of fruits and vegetables and small serving sizes of almost everything…the number on the scale has remained the same. It’s good that I haven’t gained any weight, especially since I was gaining so quickly, but I’m not having any luck losing…not even an ounce.
Every single person though, persistently tells me that the weight I’m at right now is good. It’s great, even. That I was too skinny before. I agree, hesitantly, that they’re right. A number on a scale doesn’t matter. It should all depend on how I feel. I have more energy, wahoo! That’s great! I don’t feel flabby — my workouts have toned my muscles up, so that’s good, too! These are the things I should concentrate on, but sometimes in pictures of myself I just see the new chubbiness in my face and can’t stop focusing on it. Or the dreaded double chin. Or the larger thighs. And then I think about all the pants I bought — a size up — and how often I wear leggings now instead of jeans. And I always, always, always try to push it to the back of my mind. I work at a women-centered feminist organization, for goodness sake. These types of thoughts should be so far from my mind.
I guess, my conclusion, is that I’m a work in progress. As I get older, my natural metabolism, which is gone to the wind now anyway, would’ve slowed down. So modest weight gain was always on the horizon. But I always thought of it as distant, not an immediate punch in the face of — “SURPRISE! Here’s 10 pounds of insecurity to carry around.”
But as discouraging as chronic diseases can be sometimes, the only choice I have is to work through it. And just to continue what I’m doing. If this is the way the new me is shaped, I have to accept it and love it….even if it takes me a while to see the bright side of all this.
Because there’s always a bright side
So ANYWAY. Here’s what I’ve been eating lately!
Veggie wraps. These have become my favorite lunch lately. I load up low-carb, low-cal wraps with mounds of veggies like peppers, onions, avocado, arugula, mushrooms, tomatoes, snap peas, and any other delicious veggies I have lying around the fridge. Basically, when you open our fridge now, you only see veggies. It forces me to eat mostly fruits and veggies, but also forces me to sometimes hate the fridge … because sometimes all I want are mounds of Mac and Cheese with a side of ice cream instead…
Low-carb dinners. Like these homemade chicken fingers with homemade honey mustard sauce with a side of veggies. This is just some breaded chicken breast strips baked until golden with a side of equal proportions of brown mustard and honey whisked together. So easy!!
Beans and legumes like this red lentil dal. I really love Indian dishes. They’re so incredibly simple to make, so affordable, so filling, and so healthy! This is simply a head of chopped cauliflower, 1 onion, 4 cloves garlic, 3 diced tomatoes, and 1 cup of lentils, with a few dashes of curry, cumin, tumeric, salt, and pepper. Combine in a pot with a bit of oil, stir for a few minutes, add 2 cups of water, boil, and simmer until everything delicious smelling and good and mushy. Sprinkle some lime juice over it and eat. Yum.
Vegetarian stir fries like this grilled rice and veggie bowl. I’ve had a lot of rice and veggies in my diet lately. Even though this recipe has “grilled” in the title, all I did was basically toast the veggies — one kind at a time in a touch of oil my frying pan until soft and browned, while some rice was cooking on the side. Then I mixed them all together and added some cheese and herbs.
A very happy ratatouille casserole made with eggplant, zucchini, red pepper, onion, rice, and feta cheese. Oh, and a Sriracha smiley face. The veggies were cooked slightly in a large pot with some olive oil and spices before getting tossed into a casserole dish with uncooked rice, broth, and a can of diced tomatoes and got cooked for about 40 minutes with some feta sprinkled on top. So great.
And sometimes I indulge….just a little. One Friday night we ordered from GrubHub and I got an aamaaaazing veggie burger with a side of sweet potato fries (so even that’s not too bad!) And for the Superbowl, me and my friend whipped up some banana chocolate chip cookies. (Also not incredibly bad…but incredibly tasty)
So as you can see, what’s on my plate is good stuff. Great stuff. Healthy stuff. Delicious stuff.
Here’s to another healthy week! Let’s do this!